Dogs have an incredible knack for getting people to fall in love with them.

So life tends to work in funny ways. There has been alot of drama in it, but at the same time everything is starting to look alright again. I guess that is how people get on. I have had many dissappointments, including the fact that I probably will not get into medical school in the fall. On the other hand though it gives me an opportunity to work and try again. Who knows what it will bring. I don't know if I am just making myself feel better or if this is a vaild thought. All I do know is that event the worst disappointments in my life have led to new and better things and have made me who I am. I know it sounds all too Polyannaish but it is my outlook and it gets me through the day.

Have you ever wondered how much of your life you spend waiting for something. We are always waiting for something, good news, bad news, just anything so we will be able to react and move on with life. I absolutely hate it and it never ends. I spent the semester waiting for the MCAT, to move, to take finals, to find out who my friends are. I have entered the summer, started work, but and still waiting. Waiting to move agian, waiting to get my scores back so I can decide what I will do with my life, waiting for people to find out that I am in still close contact with the one they have deemed unhealthy, for school to start again. The cycle will never end and I know it, but I still wish I could just have all my ducks in a row and nothing come along to screw it up. That is all life seems to have been for the past year, I finnally get ahead and then, BAM, shit hits the fan and I have to figure out what the hell I have to do. I know some say that this is the better side of life, that everything worthwhile is worth waiting for and struggling for, but right now I think this is a load of crap and that is just justification for the fact that life can be shitty.



Now that I am done ranting, I hope everyone has a lovely day.

I have always hated english classes because I think that 90 percent of what is taught is too subjective and I usually hate the books that I have to read. This is a rare instance in which something we dicussed actually caught my attention. We are reading All the Kings Men and one of the most famous passages from the book is a metaphor comparing life to a spider web. It states that everything is interconnected and eventually you touch the spider web a ripple runs through it an touches everything, awakening the spider and causes things to happen. After everything that has happened to me in the past few months, I have really come to believe this. Every action or inaction does not just affect you but everyone around you. No matter how hard one tries to not engage, you still do cause an affect on everyone and everything.

I have the cutest kitten in the world. This purring fuzz ball will make even the most hardened cat hater go 'your pretty damn cute.' Everyone who says cats are indifferent and unlovable have not met Kit, whose whole purpose in life is to be petted and played with by her people. She is the most lovable cat I have ever known. What a great birthday gift.

On another note, school sucks and yeah for holidays!!!

Alright, so I invited Susan, Theresa, Jason and John over for dinner tonight. We were waiting for dinner to cook and just talking when John suddenly leaves without explanation. He calls me and tells me he owes me. So whatever it is John I am used to this kinda thing. We have a pleasant dinner and then everyone leaves and I call it an early night. Well I get this call from a drunk John saying he is breaking up with me. We never dated. I don't know what the hell is going on. He hand up on me and I call him back to see what the fuck is up. He says the girls he is in the hot tub with wanted him to breakup with his girlfriend so he called me and he needs me to be mean and vindictive when he gets back into the hot tub and puts me on speaker phone. I do so, letting him know that he owes me big. What a jackass.

Alright, so when did it become so important to know stupid shit like to get from an alkane to alkyne you can dehydrate and add a halide and then blah blah blah. I mean what good is this to me. I don't mind learning, in fact I enjoy it, I wouldn't choose a profession that required me to be in school forever if I didn't. I just need to know how the hell it applies to me. It would also help if my teacher just wouldn't stop midway through the chapter and tell us we were responsible for the rest. What is that?! Shit I tell you. I hate O Chem. And I have to register in the morning which never goes right. Last semester it took me 4 hours to register and I was about to kill someone. Anyway, that is the rant for now. Tomorrow is a new day and we shall see if the fates will be kind to me with this test or if I did not study enough.